This will be my second semester in a row that I am taking classes…doesn’t sound that great, but I have actually never been able to complete two semesters back to back. I’m not sure why exactly. If I complete this semester, it will be my first time doing so in a spring semester. I have a long past of attempting to take fall classes and quitting due to anxiety or falling behind, or whatever reasons. After failing to complete fall classes I usually give up and don’t even try in the spring. In the fall of 2011, however, I did exceptionally well. I took and passed 4 classes. I gained confidence in myself after that so I signed up for spring classes….but I quit them because of the large amount of anxiety and negativity in other aspects of my life. I simply couldn’t focus. So I tried again this past fall and actually really enjoyed the one class I was in. I passed with flying colors! Here I am trying again to succeed in the spring. I’m not so sure why it has been so difficult for me in the past. I used to think it was because I tend to be more emotionally unstable during the months of February through April, but I cannot use that as an excuse anymore. I want to prove to myself that I can do anything I set my mind to.
I am also applying to Dental Hygiene school this month. I used to have doubts about my ability to get in but I have new found confidence in myself here lately. The school that I am applying to is in Roanoke, VA, which is over 3 hours away =( There isn’t much to do around there so I will have little to distract me from my studies, but I’m not so sure if I’m comfortable moving so far away. I do have other options but I would have to wait another whole year to apply. I would much rather go somewhere closer. Nevertheless, I am still going to apply, even if I decide not to go.
It is only the first week, but I feel like this semester should go smoothly as long as I keep up with my studies. Since I have rid myself of a lot of negative things in my life (crappy friends, bad habits, etc) hopefully it shouldn’t be difficult for me to focus on school. Wish me luck!