I woke up crying this morning. How is that even possible? But the tears in my eyes were happy tears…until I woke up. Sometimes my dreams are so vivid and feel so real that reality hits me so hard when I awaken. What was my dream about? Matt of course. I have these dreams often where we are together and happy again. When I wake up it feels as though I’m losing him all over again and it affects my entire day. I don’t want to get out of bed or talk to anyone. I feel lost and confused and sad. Today is Thanksgiving. I should be happy. I just can’t seem to shake this dream. It’s stuck in my mind and it’s all I can think about. All I want to do is go back to sleep because my dreams are so much better than reality. But I can’t. I have to force myself up out of bed and start my day. I have obligations. I will feel better once I’m around all my family. I really am lucky to have such a big, loving family.
Don’t Wake Me Up November 28, 2013