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So far today…. November 6, 2013

Filed under: Fun Stuff,Good to know,Random,Relationships — larenar13 @ 11:23 pm

I’m feeling really impatient today. I had my third exam in my Anatomy & Pysiology II class on monday.  Ever since then I have been waiting to find out how I did on it.  I’m so anxious!  I hope that I did well.  I have class again in 20 mins so hopefully he will give us our grades tonight.  I have another exam tomorrow for Microbiology….I’m really nervous about that one.  I spent all weekend studying for my other exam so I don’t have as much time to study for this one.  I will have to do nothing but study after class tonight and during lunch tomorrow. 

I have thought a lot about Sarah today. She kept popping into my mind at random times.  I hope that means that she has been here with me and is looking out for me.  I miss her so much and I wish that I could talk to her.  She always had a way of making me smile even when I didn’t want to.  I wonder how things would be if she were still here…..

I also just talked to my mom a few minutes ago.  She told me that my sister had a Dr’s appointment today.  Her blood pressure was high and she was told that if it is still high by next week she will be induced next thursday!  If not then she will be induced the following thursday.  This means that baby Madison will be here sooner than I thought…only by a couple weeks but still early.  I am excited and nervous.  I will officially be an aunt before Thanksgiving! 

I’m a little worried about Megan too.  She has been in and out of the hospital during the past couple months.  I really hope they can figure out what is wrong and get her healthy again.  I’m so proud of her.  She is in cosmotology school and has a great job now.  She is doing so well and I’d hate to see her health hold her back. 

Well it’s time for me to head to class.  I can’t wait to find out my exam grade.  I’m crossing my fingers! 


Catching Up October 19, 2013

Filed under: Fun Stuff,Goals,Relationships,Who I am — larenar13 @ 5:07 am

I just realized it has been over 2 months since my last post.  Wow.  I can’t believe it has been that long.  I have a lot to catch up on….

School is going alright.  It has definitely worn me out lately.  Working full time and going to class 4 nights a week is getting really old.  I have little time for anything else.  I am learning a lot but I am definitely ready for this to be over.  Microbiology is quite boring, however my anatomy & physiology class is very interesting…and tough.  My second exam was last week.  It covered blood, the heart and the blood vessels.  The heart and its functions are very complex and I was extremely nervous because I did not study as hard for this test.  I got a B on it which isn’t bad but I know that I could do much better.  I need to get focused again.  Lately, I have been slacking.  I needed a bit of a break from non stop studying.  Hopefully I can get back on track and raise my grade.  Currently i have an A in both classes but that can easily change if I am not careful.  It is very important that I maintain my 4.0 so that I can have a better chance of being accepted into Dental Hygiene school next spring.  I am going to try my very best.

My sister’s baby shower was a couple weeks ago.  I cannot believe that the baby will be here next month!  I can’t wait!  Her name is Madison Nicole.  My sister gave her my middle name which means so much to me.  She has also decided that Madison will call me Aunt Nikki and has already started calling me that whenever we talk about the baby.  It has taken me some time to warm up to that.  haha.  Madison already has a full wardrobe and her closet is stocked with plenty of punk rock princess clothing and things that say “I love my auntie” thanks to me.  I saw a 3D picture of her that was taken last week and she is so beautiful 🙂  I’m so excited for Shana and Wesley….they are going to be such great parents!

BTW I don’t believe I have posted about the other baby on the way.  Wesley’s brother William and his girlfriend Jacqueline are also expecting a little boy (Mason) who is due the day after Madison.  That is so crazy but wonderful!  

I guess the main reason why I haven’t been posting lately is because I had something (or someone, rather) taking up a lot of my free time.  It is something I never expected to happen and I am still unsure why exactly I let it happen.  I met Dustin Rogers in July.  We began dating on August 8th and ended our relationship on October 6th.  It was short and sweet.  He is a great guy who treated me wonderful but of course it wasn’t meant to be.  I was upset when it ended, however I had a feeling from the very beginning that it wasn’t going to last.  He was the only person I had even thought about being with since Matt and i think it was because he was so similar to him.  Until I met him I honestly thought that there was no one in the world who could even compare to Matt in my eyes.  He had many of the same qualities that Matt had that I missed but he WASN’T Matt.  He lives 2 hours aware and I didn’t spend a lot of time with him. I treated him exceptionally well and I wanted so badly to make things work out but I think that i felt as though it was a second chance.  I screwed up with Matt and I was determined not to make any of the same mistakes again, which I didn’t.  I would never do that again.  I couldn’t fill the void in my heart with someone else.  I would still find myself thinking about Matt all the time, even when I was with Dustin.  We would be out somewhere and something would remind me of him and I would get this uneasy feeling.  I honestly don’t think that it is possible for me to be with someone else and not still think about Matt.  How could I do that if I am still so in love with him?  Dustin is a great guy and I do not regret meeting him.  I have some really good memories with him.  He is in the military and lives 2 hours away but he will be getting out of the military in 6 months and he has decided not to remain in Virginia.  It would be foolish to continue a relationship with someone when you know that you will have to end it 6 months down the road.  I think that I needed to be with someone different to be absolutely sure of how I feel about Matt.  I still believe that Matt and I are meant to be together.  Just because I dated someone else for a short time doesn’t mean I have moved on or that I don’t love him as much.  I have not seen or spoken to Matt since April 2012 and he has wanted nothing to do with me.  I didn’t know what else to do but try something different besides sitting around waiting for the impossible to happen.  Is it crazy for me to not give up? Is it crazy for me to still have hope? I don’t think it is because I know that you never know what the future holds and people who are meant to be will always find a way to be together no matter what.

There is so much more I need to write about and I will soon. It’s study time for me now.


<3 U MATT July 17, 2013

Filed under: Fun Stuff,Random,Relationships — larenar13 @ 4:06 am


Megan saw this license plate when we were on the road this afternoon and she followed the car until we could get a good picture 🙂 I love you Matchew! 


Been a Long Time June 24, 2013

Filed under: Fun Stuff,Random,Who I am — larenar13 @ 10:25 pm

Wow.  I think this is the longest I’ve gone without posting something.  Horoscopes don’t count of course!  I guess I have been doing a pretty good job at juggling work, school, and taking care of things around the house.  Of course I do wish I had a few more hours in each day and I’d like to be able to keep up with my favorite shows on tv.  Im so glad we have on demand and HBO so that helps a lot.
Right now I’m just hanging out in my car in the JTCC parking lot.  I’m glad that I have an hour to just relax before class every monday and wednesday.  I’m surprised at how well I have been doing in my classes.  I have gotten all A’s so far. 
It sucks that it’s so hot and humid outside.  I wish I were at a pool right now.  Instead I’m sitting in my car typing away on my galaxy s3 with the AC on full blast and listening to country music on the radio.  As always, every song I hear reminds me of Matthew and I’ve already cried twice since I left work an hour ago.  I don’t mind.  I always love thinking about him 🙂 
I should’ve picked up a Red Bull on the way here bc my eye lids are feeling a bit heavy.  Once I get in class I should wake up a lot more.  This class is anything but boring and I actually enjoy it. 
Well I think I have fixed my blogging withdrawals for now.  Off to class I go!


Busy Bee June 4, 2013

Filed under: Fun Stuff,Random — larenar13 @ 6:30 am

It has been such a busy couple of weeks.  I am spending most of my evenings either in class or studying.  I got 92% on my first quiz in Chemistry and 99% on my first speech in public speaking tonight.  I was very nervous but hopefully this class will alleviate a lot of my anxiety about speaking in front of people.
Memorial Day weekend was really nice.  I got to spend it with most of my favorite people.  Although the weather wasn’t as warm as I had hoped I still managed to get sunburnt.  Nothing super exciting happened but it was great to get away and just relax for a few days.
Last weekend started off slow but got better as it went on.  I worked friday so I didn’t feel like doing much that night.  I just stayed home and drank wine.  Saturday I wanted to go to the river in Richmond but Kacy was being a slow poke so that didnt work out.  Oh well.  I decided to be spontaneous and take a last minute trip to Virginia Beach which ended up being really fun.  Then my weeked wound down when I had to get my presentation done for my speech.
I got a little upset while randomly scrolling through my facebook photos today.  I was just killing time in the John Tyler parking lot before class.  The photos of Matthew and I brought tears to my eyes.  I quickly got a hold of myself because I didnt want that on my mind when I was giving my speech.  But the intense amount of emotion that I feel whenever I look at pictures of the two of us is something that I both love and hate.  I hate that it hurts so bad but I love that I have such amazing memories with such an amazing person.
Im still getting used to living in my new house but I really like it.  Kacy is a great roommate and the house is perfect for us.  I only wish that it were closer to Chdsterfield but I am still very happy with it.
This is my late night post for the week. Haha I will try to make time to post more soon.  As for right now, it’s bed time!


Gas Pump News May 14, 2013

Filed under: Fun Stuff,Random — larenar13 @ 12:31 am

This video is absolutely hilarious! I wish they would do this around here. This couple definitely wasn’t expecting to have this much fun stopping for gas! Check it out!


Pisces horoscope for May 11 2013 May 11, 2013

Filed under: Fun Stuff,Good to know,Random,Who I am — larenar13 @ 4:46 pm

Pisces horoscope for May 11 2013
Many Pisces folks are late bloomers. That’s because you truly immerse yourselves in your childhood. It’s a time when your whimsical mind and your vast imagination can run wild. And because you enjoy it so much, some of you extend it into adulthood – sometimes for a long, long time! But that’s not necessarily a negative trait. It can prepare you for success in many areas of life – parenthood, certain businesses, and certainly any creative field of work. Your childlike personality will come in handy with an upcoming opportunity – enjoy it and pour yourself into it, because it could bring great success.

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